its his bday in iraq

well today is tim's bday n its soo hard to not have him here! i start crying just thinking bout it! n trying to plan our wedding while he is gone is even harder but i wouldnt give it up for anything! im trying sooo hard to stay strong for him my rock is half around the world n not with me! i know its his job n im proud to be his but i didnt think it was going to be this hard on me or him even though he doesnt show it i know it is cuz sometimes he wont even talk to me n that gets me pissed sooo bad but i understand to a point but my mind goes through all these thought thinking he doesnt wanana be with me or he doesnt love which i know isnt true but my mind thinks that for some reason! i really hate this war but if we want our freedom then we gotta do this! being an army fiance is a job in its self i would only suggest it for girls who are strong n dont have depression but unlike me i have depression n so its really hard on me i just cant wait for march cuz thats r&r time n im crossing my fingers that he can come home early well i wish i know what else to write i will be back writing more tonite maybe

like they say in the army

later